Dear Laurel,
I'm in an unsettled frame of mind today. I'm circling a big thought, walking around it trying to gain perspective; poking it and then backing up to see if it makes any difference. So far it's not working. Yesterday I came across the blog of the woman I wanted to be. I dreamed of that life--not fancy, not wealthy, but sure in my place of service and calling. I clicked on the amazon.com link and saw the book she wrote 10 years ago, about the same time I was writing a proposal for the same kind of book. She was deeply influenced by the same people who influenced me; last weekend we cooked from the same cookbook. We are so much a like, but different in our experience. More than anything I am startled to see this glimpse into her world; circumstances changed my life and opportunities so dramatically that I had no choice but to pursue my calling in a different way. Startled, and maybe a little wistful. I'm sure you'll be hearing about this for a while, thanks for bearing with me.
All my best,
Kate
Dear Kate, Keep talking it through. As unsettling as it is, I think as you circle and look for perspective, it will come. I so enjoy hearing from you through these postcards. m
ReplyDeleteThanks, Ms. M, I'm working on it--slowly and gently.
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